But was he ever asked a choice between what he liked and what he went on to do, I pretty much still cant decide between the two. Somehow i liked what i was into purely by the quest for something i would have that was a king sized life just like in the movies. Alas ! but that dint happen, life sometimes teaches you or should i say preaches you, its most valuable lesson in these difficult circumstances when you are supposed to be all grown up and mature enough to pick on fights that you somehow know you can win, or atleast give it a good dog fight till the very end. Life is a BITCH, you just cant stop it whenever you please to, it has the final say in everything You stop when it say STOP.
When you reflect on the last 15 months no how it was and you realize you have come a long way, of what did you really want and what do you have on your plate the kick of life just gets even more painful. I always knew some how life was a bitch, and every one gets their fair share of the ups and downs but nothing like this one that i have have, all i am looking at is an abyss with no way out. I guess this is what is my story till date and have ample time to somehow find the way out of this maze, but then the question does kick in" what did u want first place, do you really think this is the way to go , If yes then where have you gone wrong, did u miss an exit for which you have to circle the entire route again.? I pretty much dont know myself, i guess its a process of self discovery, which everyone has to go do it one day eventually. Well i guess i am now wiling away my time just doing the same and looking for the exit to the blissful world which i dreamt about when i was a kid.
Yeah sure, now i could say i have learnt the value of money, when you have a part time job and you earn from it your daily bread, but when you look at the account summary every week hoping that your pay-check has fallen, a reminder that its your sweat that made it count. Well there is an another way, when fellows says " Ask your Parent" when you think about it , it sounds so soothing but when you try to put it into action, its like a pin that just went through your heart and is not really that soothing. you cant muster enough courage to ask, them or i should say beg them. Is that all that you learnt, and you end put writing such a big story about it, you retard!! well some could say
I may be way off the point, but i am done though, i am not like resigning from life or anything or pissed about it, I have my own quests that may have started or yet to start, i have to find my boat and set sail soon enough.
Adios fellow sailors, have a good time
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